i love u ketat2

Dear Mom,

so it was your birthday and i did not buy you any presents because i simply cannot find anything that you would like. let's face it ma, you've gotzz itzz allzzzzz!
a house, no no no..houseszzz
baju berlambak sampai almari jatuh.
boys yang besar macam giants.
a hubby yang kuat tido n bebel.
a daughter yang sebijik macam father dia. kuat tido. tapi workaholic. dan awesome.
..
dan annoying.

for the past 21years plus of my life, i know i've been a happy child. but at the same time, i know i annoy the hell out of you.
i likez to cubitz your pipiz.
i like to sing out loud in the car with my sengaja-dibuatkan-suara-buruk-gila to annoy everyone.
i like to make faces at you when you're trying to be serious. to annoy you, of course.
i like to answer "tanak" when you ask "along boleh tolong.." laju laju before you finish your sentence. to annoy you, of course. but i always do it anyway kan maaaaaa! =B
i like to gigit gigit your arms while making sounds yang pelik pelik.
annnnnnnnnnnnddddddddd ssssssssoooooooooooooo much more.
you know lah kan.

heheee..

i wanted to give a toast at dinner yesterday (bajet american style la kan) but i just can't. i know if i start talking serious, i would either cry, or make stupid faces to immediately change the mood.
so i write this out for you ok?

mother, i know i've been the least helpful at home. i've been living far from home since school up till today.
but now that i'm that far from you, i seldom go home on weekends to be with you and the family. I dearly miss that. what i miss most about home, is you =)
when i come home and you're not there, i always thought "lebih baik tak balik. cis." but i stayed anyway sebab rumah ada astro. hehe!
i enjoy talking to you, and sharing stories with you. you're my only girrrpreeennn at home!

ma, remember when we were in Portobello road? i was separated from you and the family. i can't call out because i don't have roaming. it was raining hard then too. i remember how scared i was. ye lah, how can i go back? how to find all of you in a sea of crowd? i was completely clueless! then i just called you out in my heart. i prayed that i will see you.
and i did.
i saw you.
i always have this ESP thingy with you. =)

you always listen to the boys and me complain about our lives and we hardly ever hear yours.
i remember i used to complain about how studying is so difficult. and you just kept giving me advices and encouraging me that "it's normal to feel like that. memang susah apa you tengah buat."

how hard it must had been for you to raise us, to pick us up from school and feed us with good food everyday, to suppress your hopes and dreams for the sake of raising us, your setan kids.
how hard it must (still) be for you to clean our rooms, wash our clothes, iron and fold them, and feed us everyday..

and yet, you don't complain.

you do make remarks about us being lazy and 'anak tak guna', but you still do what you do. you support us, you listen and you make us feel loved. you accept us the way we are, even when we're at our 'bad' phase. you always tell us to know our limits without ever telling us what the limits were.
but somehow rather, we know it anyway.

you've done so much for us.
and i wish i know how to repay you.
insyallah ma, in future, i will do what's necessary for you and abah.
and that will be my gift to you. for all the years you've sacrificed for us. =)

you're the best, mom. you're my inspiration. you're my strength.

i love you so much, mother. i always pray that i can make you proud.
i hope along the way, i have.

Credit to maria Elena =)

my dream wedding

Skarang ni semua org tgh dok hot asyik cite psl kawin je .ak pn nk gk la kan cite.hehe. Act mungkin lmbt lgi tuk ak jdi seseorang yang bergelar isteri.bak kata mama aku ni tak matang lgi.huhu yeke.*sigh*. Btw ak nk gk cite pasal perkahwinan yang aku impikan.ak xmo jenis perkahwinan yang menelan blanje beribu2 lemen2 ringgit.cukuplah sekadar buat majlis kecil-kecilan untuk mengwar-warkan pada semua orang bahawa aku sudah berkahwin.that it!tapi tak semestinye kalu wat kecil-kecilan x meriah n x besh kn kn.yang penting niat hati kita tuk mendirikan masjid.btul x btul x.orang len buat grand2 asal kte x wt.tu ak x ksh.bgi ak x pntg.y pntg kehidupan selepas berkahwin kelak.buat apa wt majlis besar-besaran tapi lepas tu x bahagia.bercerai berai.Astaghfirulah mintak dijauhkanlah semua tu.ok skrg jom dengar kisah perkahwinan angan2 aku ataupun orang jawa panggil “MY DREAM WEDDING”.

Kalu ikutkan hati ak la kan, aku xnk bertunang bagai.sbb konsep tunang ni cuma tuk menunjukkan yang sang lelaki ni dah booking sang perempuan tuk jadi suri hidup dia je.blum sah jadi hak milik mutlak lagi kan.tpi bgi ak x perlu lah kot.adat je kan.bukan wajib dari segi agama pn.lgi pun tunang zaman skrg bukan mcm zaman dlu.betunang zaman skrg bju pun nk meghelip2 siap ngn plamin lgi.pastu cincin lgi pastu aptah lgi mcm2 la.dah macam majlis kahwin kalu tgk.so sgt membazir di situ.conclusion nye kte skip tunang. next kte g akad nikah trus.klu aku la ak nk wt akad nikah ngn majlis persandingan skali gus.xyah asing2.jimat duet jimat masa dan jimat tenaga.lepas akad nikah ngn tok kadi trus jamu tetamu makan begambar sket2 dah selamat. Ok siap! yaayy dah sah jdi laki bini.boleh g honeymoon.dushh asal gedik sgt kau ni.haish (-_-‘).

0k2 berbalik pada cerita kte tdi.hari pernikahan mstilah wt kt rmh pompuan kn xkn wt kt umh laki plak kan.pelik beno.xpenah dibuat org.hehe.so lepas je upacara akad nikah n membatalkan air semayang,para tetamu jemputan bolehlah menikmati jamuan diluar rumah.cam bese la pasang khemah kt depan rumah.khemah toksah dok sewa dari weeding plannerlah.Pinjam dri Kem Askar bapak ak je.free.hehe.tpi hias la sket2 bgi cun.kate kahwin.haruslah dihias dengan sbaik rupa supaya nmpk shweet gtu.ahakz.pastu meja VIP kne lah ad sebiji dua.xkn kawan2 bos2 bapak ak dtg nk bgi tmpt makan cikai2 je.kang apa plak kte dowg. “Si Pian tu kdekut beno.kate ank pompuan sowg je yang kawen”.haa kte xmo terjadi cmtu ye.hehe

Ok kte nk cite pasal apa eh.kompius2 bnyk sgt nk cite ni.pikiran melayang2 tgh dok bayang macam2. haha.ermm baik kte cite pasal baju dlu kan.baju kahwin aku nanti kalu bole ak nk sesimple yang bole.xmo lah ad labuci kelip2 bagai.euwww meghelip2.xshuke xshuke.biarlah simple tapi still tampak anggun dan elegan bila aku menggayakannya di hari persandingan nanti.cewah.bila pkai je nanti kan,orang akan ckp alalala swheetnyeerrr~.hehe contohnye mcm baju kat bwh ni

WOW cantik yang amat kan?

mne satu nih putih ke pink ??+_+

Bgi ak baju ni mmg siyes sumpah sgt cantik.nmpk simple je kan tpi still nmpk WOW.n baju ni menunjukkan ciri-ciri pengantin muslimah.nmpk solehah je kan.hihi.klu dpt ni mmg ak pegang jela xnk lepas.klau bole nk wt tdo skali.ngee~

Ok skrg kte masuk bab pelamin.kalu bole pelamin tu harusla nmpk cantik n sedap mata memandang.xmo shining2.klu bole ak nk pkai warna pastel bgi sesuai ngn baju yang macam kat atas tdi tuh.lagipun ak ni berkulit gelap sawo matang, mne bole pilih warna kontra sgt.hikhik.pastu pelamin tuh haruslah dihiasi ngn bunga2 segar disekelilingnye. ouh kelihatan sgt romantik disitu.

sweet kan pink putih.hee

ni pun ok gk.nmpk sgt suci

simple but sooo elegant

Haa pelamin ni lah yang akan dijadikan tempat tuk akad nikah, tempat tuk membatalkan air semayang, tempat tuk sarungkan cincin and tempat tuk bergambar. Then bila semuanya selesai tetamu boleh la trus keluar dari rumah.eh eh bukan menghalau suh blek tpi ad jamuan yang disediakan di luar rumah.

Ok skrg bab makanan.ak xmo la guna khidmat catering yang menelan belanja RM10 sekepala. Kalu 1000 kepala??haa korang kre la sndri.so kt sni ak juz pkai khidmat jiran depan rumah aku ni je ha.dia mmg pandai masak n masakan dy mmg la sungguh lazat smpai x terkata.so bab2 makanan serah kt dy jela.nanti biar mama deal ngn dia.hehe. pastu jiran2 sekeliling pn haruslah datang menolong ap yang patut kn.tolong potong bawang pn jdi lah. haa brulah ad semangat kejiranan kt situ.haaa x pun x pun upah tukang masak kem bapak aku.lgi senang.habes crite.papepn ikutla mne2 pn kan.janji tetamu yang datang berpuas hati ngn layanan yang diberi oleh kami.

As a conclusion, itulah perkahwinan impian yang aku sgt impi-impi kan agar ia menjadi kenyataan. berharap supaya diberi peluang untuk bergelar raja sehari di muka bumi ini. Dan di panjangkan umur agar berpeluang untuk menjadi seorang isteri kepada seorang lelaki bernama suami.Amin J